compulsive overeater

Summer Of The Measured Binges

WARNING! BINGE FOODS MENTIONED HERE!! The summer after 11th grade, as I swam in the backyard pool, my mind was swimming with visions of a thin senior year. As was my custom, I vowed some time during the last week of school to stick to a strict diet of carrot sticks and water for the entire …Continue reading →

May

My Last Diet

Without mentioning any names, I want to share with you what it was like during my last attempt to lose weight through dieting. (This was about seven years ago, during one of my OA “vacations.”) It was through the use of a famous program that I’m sure has helped thousands of people. I just happened …Continue reading →

May

“Hoarders” Lesson Learned

Several months ago, I walked into the living room to find my husband watching a show called “Hoarders: Buried Alive.” It is a documentary/reality-tv style show about people who are obsessed with filling their homes with “stuff” with no regard for the effect this behavior has on their family members, their health, and their finances. …Continue reading →

May

Cookout Pigout

WARNING! BINGE FOODS ALERT! Here is how I used to act-out my food addiction at the typical family cookout in my ‘tweens… My first order of business was always to volunteer for the jobs that would allow me to “feed” my habit. I usually got my way, too, since I was the oldest, and because I …Continue reading →

May

The Dreaded “EAT RAY!”

I always have Nickelodeon on. It is one of the ways I combat negativity. No horrible news stories for this gal! Just Spongebob, T.U.F.F. Puppy, and Timmy Turner for me, thanks! So the other morning, as I was doing my household “chores,” I didn’t think much of the sounds of maniacal laughter and dramatic superhero music …Continue reading →

May

Drunks At Meetings (Myself Included)

About 2 years ago I started going to AA as part of my food addiction recovery. A few months in, an obviously drunk man showed-up at one of my regular meetings. I was appalled. I mean, I could see if the person just smelled like booze and sat there quietly, but this guy was loud-mouthed, slurring …Continue reading →

Apr

Step 2, Part 1: “Came to believe…”

When I first came into program, I considered myself to be an atheist. Through going to meetings and reading The Big Book, I discovered that I was really an agnostic. This meant that I believed that the existence of God could not be proven, but that I was at least open to the possibility that …Continue reading →

Apr

I Can’t Blame My Family

Coming back to OA after a 100-pound-plus weight-gain was not easy – I’m not going to lie. But once I was there, because I was a lot older and more worldly (I can’t honestly say “wiser”), I found it to be much easier this time to make friends. Due to the inherent stunting powers of this …Continue reading →

Apr

“I can see it in your face.”

I can’t tell you how many times I have lost large amounts of weight (I am talking over 50 pounds, here), only to hear these fatal words. At first my hopes soar as someone says, “Hey! You look like you lost weight!” Then they crash and burn when I hear, “I can really see it …Continue reading →

Apr

“But I DESERVE it!”

This lie has lessened in me, but still lingers to this day. There is still a small part of me that thinks that I should be “allowed” to eat whatever I want – or maybe a better way of saying it would be that I think I should be “exempt” from having to eat healthy, …Continue reading →

Apr

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